Do You Know Who You Are

I've been on the job hunting saga lately and as everything else in my life I had a strange "interview." It was for a therapist we will call Terry that uses sensory play with her kids. She was a super nice lady and I love what she's doing so I was happy to send my resume and set up a meeting. I arrived at the agreed time and began a tour of the office including the sloth room. Yes I said sloth room.

This room is for those occasions you're having trouble getting settled and just need a chill moment. There were 3 large stuffed sloths and a small tent in the room with low lighting. I think this kind of room should be required in offices all across America.

                                      

Our conversation went from therapy to Jesus within minutes which didn't surprise me as He is the best mental and physical physician I know. As we were talking children began coming in and Terry motioned me into the room they were entering. Before I knew it I was in a yoga class with an intern and 3 boys around 10 years old.

As I was lying on the floor I was thinking how glad I was I wore stretch jeans and not the skirt I had originally planned on. At one point after stretching and bending in unnatural positions

I ended up lying on the floor facing the wrong direction causing Miss Terry to pause the class and say"Miss Gena you many want to turn around so you can see me."

I realigned myself and began laughing under my breath as I pictured myself in downward dog wondering how I went from a dignified interview to bending in half. I don't know how these things happen to me but I knew it was a jewel in the making.

Class was over and I said goodbye to my new friends not knowing what the actual job was, the hours or the pay. I did however have “yoga” to add to my already

interesting resume. 

                                                     

Needless to say I did not get that job or any I had applied for because God had other plans. He politely told me if I was done “helping” Him He would appreciate it if I would just wait for my next assignment.

You see I was making all this a spiritual thing. I prayed and fasted. I repented and sought counsel as I assumed I was doing something wrong or missing something and that's why I wasn't finding employment. I found myself convinced there was some great fight of good and evil over me and I was losing the fight.

In reality just a few weeks later the Lord showed me I was leaving town for a while and that's why I didn't get a job. He didn't want me to make a commitment I couldn't keep.

The truth is, if I go deeper, the real fight was I forgot who I was.

“It does take some humility, but when you agree to get out of the way, and stop assuming you already have the answers on everything of spiritual nature, and stop scheming, plotting, and planning how to make life happen for yourself, then something marvelous begins to occur. Life begins to unfold right before your eyes, without you doing anything. That unfoldment is the Lord God Himself, living the life which He is, but He is living it in you and through you”

Michael Stepakoff One God

I think sometimes we, I, forget that God himself is living inside of us. We forget who we are and whose power we are tapped into.If we allow God to unfold things in His timing and learn the lessons He has for us right where we are we will stay in perfect peace.

Years ago when my now 15 year old grandson Anthony was about 3 and just tall enough to open the front door of his home I was worried he would open it up for a stranger. I decided to train him on door opening safety. For about 2 weeks I would knock on the door and as I heard his hand trying to open it I would yell remember ask, who is it.

One day I thought I would test our efforts and showed up unannounced. I knocked on the door and could could hear his little feet running toward me. I saw the handle start to turn so I grabbed it and said in a low voice he would not recognize “say who is it” to which he replied “hold on Nana.” I repeated in my man like tone “it's not Nana say who is it” to which he again replied “hold on Nana.” A third time I said “it's not Nana say who is it.”

As his tiny hands were trying desperately to open the door I was firmly holding shut, I heard his dad ask him “whose at the door?” To which he wisely replied, It's Nana but she don't know who she is.” Hmmmmmm

Ephesians 6:11 Put on the WHOLE armour of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

(Wiles: a trick or stratagem meant to fool, trap, or entice; device.

Deceitful cunning; trickery.)

Now Gems I know you may be thinking yea yea we have heard this a thousand

times before but I don't think we pay enough attention to this verse. Deception is the enemies greatest tool. If he can make us believe something that isn't true, he wins.

Remember satan is an angel that was created by God. Nothing is greater than the creator.

Colossians 1:16 For by him were all things created, that are in heaven, and that are in earth, visible and invisible, whether they be thrones, or dominions, or principalities, or powers: all things were created by him, and for him.

I think we somehow believe or were taught that God is fighting with satan. That somehow satan even has power to fight with God. He does not! There is only One God who has all power and per God that power, who is the Holy Spirit, lives in us.

Galatians 4:6 Because you are sons, God has sent forth the Spirit of His Son into our hearts, crying, "Abba! Father!"

When Jesus said we have to die to self I used to think it meant being selfless you know putting others first but I think it also means dying to human self, our human mind. What I mean is dying to the thought that we are just humans. It's when we see ourselves as just human we allow the lies the enemy tells us to take us out. We start believing the lies he's telling us about ourselves and our situation. Fear begins to rule in us.

Now some fear is valuable, it can make us slow down and be more aware of our surroundings. This is where renewing our mind comes in. Jesus told us exactly how to combat and win these attacks of the enemy.

I was telling myself I couldn't get a job and then went on to tell myself all the reasons why. I'm getting too old. I don't have a degree, I can't speak Spanish, computers hate me.

Then I renewed my mind. I prayed in the Spirit and acknowledged the power of the God I serve. He has NEVER had a problem placing me right where He wants me. He has never stopped providing all my needs and up until the latest destination had not asked me to go anywhere else.

If He wanted me working somewhere I would be. God was not fighting with satan to have a job open up for me and neither was I.

It all sounds so easy yet we battle this same scenario almost daily. 

So Gems I'm writing this jewel today to remind you that the battle is in our mind which is human we must fight with our spirit man.

I am Gena Duran/Nana  I am one with my creator and I have the power of the Holy Spirit to stand against the wiles of the devil and so do you!